Where have all the good ones gone, why are there no geniune and selfless people left. And if they still exsist WHERE THE HECK ARE THEY!?
This weekend has put A LOT of things into perspective for me, some being: you can only count on yourself and the people you trust and love the most can and WILL stab you in the back enough to make you feel like there’s no one in life that cares.
I have a lot of people in my life that I love and care about, some that know it and some that don’t. I like to think that I put others first and that I am a least a little self-less. I invest a lot of time and effort making sure the people around me are happy. From dropping everything and running to a friend’s side to doing random things to make sure they are happy and loving life. I never like to see a friend down, or unhappy so I try my best to make sure that never happens. And even though unhappy moments in life are ineveitable, so far in these past 21 years of my life, I think I’ve done a pretty good job of taking care of my friends (shamefully sometimes more than my own family).
Then, this weekend, I realized people don’t care. Humanity has lost it’s love for one another. This commandmant “Love thy neighbor as you love yourself.” is non-exsistent. Poor God, he has all these plans and love for us and he does so much for us and we can’t even follow ten simple rules to live a happy life. What kind of race are we? This disgusts me. A friend can’t even reciprocate the love and care I have for them becuase they are too into themselves, they are too caught up in their own life? How? How can ignoring and being rude and inconsiderate towards people who do so much to care about you be even a little satisifying? Why do people work that way?
Why can’t people all just work the same way. If they did we would have such an easy time making peace in the world. I do not get why life has to be so complicated. So much for Christmas spirit. Isn’t this time of year supposed to be about love and being thankful and happy for what God has blessed you with?
I feel like there such hype behind having a “great life”, lately it feels like the only thing life has done is shit on me. I have all these preconceived notions about how to care of things, how to make myself happy and all that jazz.
- You can only make your own happiness
-No one can determine your happiness for you
-You only live once, don’t let others bring you down
ALL of these are easier said then done. To see a friend dog me so hard after doing so much for them makes me sick to my stomach. It’s sick to be so willing and helpful to a person and them just ignore it and not appreciate you, it’s awful. I disgusted, I am deeply, deeply saddened. I feel like my heart has been broken in so many ways by so many people this weekend. On that note. WHAT IS WITH ALL THE DAMN MEN IN THIS WORLD!?
What is with the stupid games? It is becuase it makea landing us all that more satisfying? Becuase it is not fun for us girls, I am sick to death of being trampled and walked all over and played. It’s awful, I’m sick of it, I may just become a nun to avoid the whole freaking shenanigan of it all. Like seriously, a girl puts herself out there, makes the effort, and is rejected BUT not just rejected. Led on for weeks thinking something more, thinking that someone is willing to invest time and love in them, only to find, they aren’t the only one in the picture, there is someone else.
I have lost all faith in men. Not one man, has, will, or can ever prove me wrong. And a side note: I am sick to death of seeing couples EVERYWHERE. I am constantly reminded that I am supposed to be in love, I am supposed to be with this great guy who is going to sweep me off my feet and love me more then I could ever imagine or pathom. And then there are these Hollywood movies, that make fun of this saying it’s not real, no one actually gets swept off their feet, THEN THE END OF THESE MOVIES IS JUST THAT. Why?! Why is the world torturing us all, this isn’t fair. I hate life, why is there so much built behind it? Why are there so many unwritten rules and standards that we all try to live up too. It’s exhausting. I can no longer have th can do attitude when the entire world and my entire life feels like a black hole. I seriously think to myself that this life I am living cannot be real, there’s no way I can be living this joke.
I am so sick of being walked all over and even though I am the only one who can make my life better, no matter who hard I work IT DOESN’T STICK.
My new philosphy on life:
- You are the only one that will get shit on. Everyone else around you will be happy.
-You’ll be alone forever, get used to it.
-Christmas has lost it’s true meaning.
-Get a pooper scooper and keep it with you at all times so you can dig through this shit called life.